I am a leech. When someone gives me an inch of leeway, I use that to take a mile. If I knew, for certain, that I had a few months of rent paid for, what would I do? Not use that time wisely, that's for sure. I would probably just play video games and watch tv for a few months. The more support offered to me, the more I would waste that support.
So, I cut off my contacts. This was two things. Firstly, it was me trying to make sure that the only way for me to move forwards was through my own effort, thus ensuring that I start to learn the habbit of hard work instead of just leeching as usual. Secondly, though, it allowed me more freedom, in that I could "move forwards" without having to be pushed from behind... I want to act on my own, not just react to the forces put upon me by family. The most common answer to "how do you beat laziness" is "motivation." In isolating myself from the influences of others, even if only for a short time...., it's easier to find my OWN motivation. Saying that you want straight A-s in school mainly because you want to make your mum proud is NOT AN ACCEPTABLE WAY TO THINK. It doesn't work. Sure, you can use that kind of reason to help motivate you, but your own ambition has to be at the core of it, or the effort will DIE halfway. Halfassed.
Ah, I added my "Mantra of Power" down at the bottom of the page. A collection of various philosophies and methods I try to use for motivation, anything that I have had any measure of success with... if you know a good one that's not already on there, please tell me. I've been trying pretty much everything over the past few years. Ever since I realized that what I got ain't enough.
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